The Best Feeling Ever

I was able to hold my boys together for the first time yesterday. It was truly amazing... the best feeling ever. It was better than all of my favorite things together. Like... better than driving by Culver's and seeing your favorite flavor of the day, better than waking up in the middle of the night and realizing you still have seven more hours to sleep (that will happen again someday for me, I hope), better than putting on your winter jacket for the first time in the fall and finding $5 in the pocket or a candy bar - ha!, better than putting on an old pair of skinny jeans and having them fit, better than putting on flip flops after wearing high heels all day... better than anything! haha :) It was so great.

Holding them yesterday together was the first time I felt really complete with them. Before I always felt as though I was giving one more time than the other or I would worry about the other when I could here him cry but couldn't see him. The best too was seeing them interact. It was so cute! Luke just loved to cuddle with his brother. He was all over Max... sucking on his hand, shoulder, and just nuzzling into his back. So sweet! The best part was that Luke slept like a log for the whole two hours that I held them. He sometimes has a harder time (breathing) during his feedings and things but he didn't de-sat once the whole time I was holding him and he was in room-air the whole time (no extra oxygen)! Max did really good too but got super hungry towards the end. He didn't seem to be as fond of sharing time... he kind of pushed Luke over into my armpit, and by the end Max was in the middle of my chest... got all the room he wanted. Poor Luke! :) Also, Max was breathing for about 45 minutes all by himself. When the nurse transferred him over to me she accidentally disconnected his O2 cord. I was so impressed at how well he was doing, didn't phase him a bit! Overall, it was just the most peaceful, special time I have had with my boys thus far. They were so precious and it was awesome to see them interact with each other.


Last night I came home in a flash (at least it felt like it) and Caleb and I went to the Healing Service at church. It was just a special time to pray for healing or someone you know that needs healing, etc. It was a great time for Caleb and I to slow down and reflect on our blessings and bring our requests before God. We went up to the front and both lit a candle for each of the boys and prayed for them together... and both cried and laughed. It was a very special time. I am so thankful for my boys and the joy they have given us. I thank God for them and for this whole situation. I know it will mold our whole family into stronger followers of Christ. I'm on my way back up today to spend the night again. Max might even get a bath again tonight... so I am excited to see how that goes!